i'm back

i know i left for a while. i was in the black hole period of planning. but now i'm jobless and have all sorts of time to think about my wedding details. perhaps this is a good place to mind dump. here is what is in my mind. [if I could draw a pie chart of how much time each thing is taking i would, but instead i'll just list them according to how much space they are taking in my brain. or what has popped up recently. we'll see..]

1. invitations: they must be done. soon. and printed. soon. and sent. yesterday. i wish i had a million dollars to get them calligraphied.
2. hotel blocks: shit. i should've started this silly process sooner
3. photographer: to pay or not to pay. that is the question. i want my girls in photos with me. i want great engagement photos. what to wear for engagement photos.
4. reception details: terrariums. glass. table runners. typewriter. guest games. photo booth. alcohol. candles. music. favors. flowers. traditions. dessert.
5. ceremony details: officiant. readings. vows. order. lighting. seating. stella. walking down the 'aisle'. post-ceremony alone time. gift for chris. music.
6. the dress: hair piece. veil. ring to cover tattoo. dermablend to cover other tattoo. earrings. post-ceremony look. petticoat. re-pressing the pleats. my arms better be 10 lbs. lighter. where to get my spray tan.
7. the guests: how will we make their stay lovely? saturday brunch. what will they do if we dont have all the 'usual' wedding stuff at the reception?
8. the timeline. so many things must fall into place. i dont want to be the one to make sure they do.
9. registry. how does anyone do this? can we just have some cash? can someone at least tell me what knives to register for?
10. the marriage. the sick thing is that i have completely disconnected from this element... you know, the thing this is all for? i know why i love him but i forget that a relationship needs nourishment and care. like a garden and i love gardening...


but goddamn! those effing details! arggggg!

ohyes. i forgot:

rings
parent gifts [although i've already handled the moms and sister]
thank you cards
programs
other decor [framed pics?]
hotel room for us
transportation
what to wear before what to really wear
shoes
some sort of coat thing [fake fur shrug?]
mini-honeymoon


perhaps more. i'll come back if i have to :)